If you were given a chance to reset your life, start all over, would you do it?
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I need a part-time job so I can save up enough money for the lens I've been drooling over in forever! Sigh. But I'm not sure if I want to go back to getting minimum wage working in a place where some customers act badly towards employees. I've had enough of those already.

I need a part-time job just so my mom wouldn't kill me if she finds out that I bought lenses that could have been spent to pay for my student loan. But photography and music are the only outlets I have. Besides, I don't really have anyone to spend on sooo that leaves with spending more money for me. Hehe

I need a part-time job so I can save up enough for a downpayment for my own place. Le sigh.

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I can need all I want, but nothing will happen if I just think things. Started applying earlier. Hopefully I get good news - or something equivalent to that. Haha.

As for my current job, I really want to get out. But I have to suck it up if I want to move up within the company. Konting tiis pa siguro...

That, or find something better. There's bound to be one somewhere!

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I just realised that the past 15 minutes I spent typing this entry was all wasted because all I talked about was work. Gahd. I'm so boring. LOL

It's 2:30 in the Morning

And I'm still up. I shouldn't have had the chai latte earlier. Sigh*

I am getting impatient with what is happening right now. I don't know where my career is headed to. I have been looking for intermediate accounting positions, since I'm supposed to be at that level by now, but haven't gotten any luck. It's getting frustrating, but I still have to count my blessings. At least I still have a job...

Whenever I feel sad, I would always watch this video clip a friend gave me. It never fails to make me smile. Somehow, it gives me that comforting feeling that somewhere out there, someone cares enough to make that for me.

I feel sort of sad right now. And it's not about work, because work = stress. I'm not sure what it is, but I only have this nagging feeling that I can't seem to shake off. Hmm.

Maybe that or I'm just bloated? Hahahah!!!

And So It Begins.

I am on my last year of studying! Looking at what needs to be done for this last year is overwhelming. The tasks at hand seems daunting. And I could only pray for the days to pass by quickly so I could get my designation already! I feel like almost all my life was spent studying, which is why I try to go out with every free time I have.

Work has been hectic. Compared to a year ago when I would actually have time to read and compose emails to make them sound more formal, the emails I have been sending these days have been short and direct to the point. My Supervisor must be hating me right now. I've pointed out most of the things she hasn't been doing properly, while copying our Controller on the emails I have been sending. It's just frustrating working with her. =/

I guess our Controller can sense my utter frustration. He never fails to remind me to be patient, how he wants me off being a junior and on to being a proper accountant. I do appreciate how much trust he has on me; for knowing that he believes I can do whatever job I'm assigned to.

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I told one of my friends that the bank teller tried to hit on me last Monday.
He replied with a "Eh bakit kasi ang daming naghi-hit on sa 'yo?"

Ampucha. Slappppp Hahahaha!

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I want binatog!!!!! =(

I feel so blessed to have everything that I have right now. It only seem like yesterday when the worst that I thought could happen, happened. And now I am over it. All these good things are happening and sometimes I don't even know if I deserve it. All I can do is make the most of what I have and hope for the best.

I will be turning 25 in a few minutes. I'd be 25 (technically) if I was in the Philippines. Apart from wanting to pass my CMA exam, all I ever wanted was to be able to celebrate my birthday with the people I care about the most. Hopefully I'd be able to do just that this weekend. Mejo sad naman kung hindi... =(

So he's back.

He messaged me one time when he saw me online in YM. He asked me how I was doing. I told him I was doing alright. He asked me the usual questions: how's work? studies? family? I answered him with my usual answers. Same shit as always, family is doing fine. Then came the question I've been dreading: how's my lovelife?

I answered him with a "what love life?"

He continued to question me, I think he repeatedly asked the same question thinking that I would crack. But I didn't. I was being honest when I told him that I didn't want to think about that just yet.

And so his question was followed up by another: "So, when are you going to give me a chance?"

At that point I was ready to block him, or just appear offline. But I answered anyway. I told him that I did gave him a chance, he just didn't take it. LOL. Now the moment is gone and I don't really want to go back and give another chance. If he thought I was joking when I said yea, pwede ako magpaligaw, then good riddance! Haha!

Anyway, so that's how the convo went after a looooong while of not talking to each other. I am very tempted to block him off completely. But I have known this guy since we were wearing lampin (I dunno when diapers came in to existence) but yea...for some reason, I just can't.

Luckily though, one of my close friends called me so I told him that I'd be back to continue our "interesting" conversation. (But I never did came back, and I am planning to set myself as permanently offline-to him to avoid further questions.)